HER

Okay, so in February of this year I was feeling really blue and didn't really feel like doing much. All i did was go on twitter and read useless tweet after useless tweet. Then I came across an account that seemed to be nice. So I followed the account and got a follow back not to long after. I messaged her and she responded back.

We had a nice conversation. I thought that would be it, but no we continued talking for days afterward. Her name is Taylor. Taylor and I seemed to have much in common. We just got along right away. She took away some of the pain i'd been feeling for a while. I felt my purpose coming back to life. We soon realized that with the distance between us, Taylor living in Colorado and me living in Ontario, that we probably would never meet.

I told my best friend that met an awesome person off Twitter. She told me to be careful. I asked her why. She told me "I know you. If you continue talking to this girl you are gonna fall for her. And the distance between you is gonna break your heart." I told her "No way, i'll be fine"  Nonetheless my best friend was not buying it.

I continued talking to Taylor, completely ignoring my best friends advice. Seemed fine to me. I had made a new friend I could talk to about anything. About a month later Taylor and I Skyped for the first time. Her, never using Skype before was confused at first. Didn't work so well the first time. We skyped the next night and it went fine. Well in a week we skyped like 6 out of 7 days.We had become great friends in a very short period of time.

One day my disability was really upsetting me and she was quite concerned so it was her mission to cheer me up. We skyped for over 3 hours that night. She told me "I know... And the thing that sucks is that there's nothing I could really say to make it better... I'm here for you no matter what though. Forever. You know I'd be there in two seconds flat if it was possible.." That was definitely something i wanted to hear. She continued with the inspiration. "I'm not going to tell you that everything's going to be okay. That's not true for anybody because there's always going to be something not okay. But right now, I'm here and tonight things will be okay."

After the seriousness was over we had a bit of less serious talk because i was feeling better. Her job was done. Then she went for a week long trip. So for the first time in a month and a half of talking everyday, it would be the first time we wouldn't communicate for a bit. When Taylor came back, we picked up where we left off. Fast forward to May. I fell in love with Taylor. My best friend was right! My stomach was in knots, the first two weeks of May.

I had to tell Taylor, even though I knew there was no way she felt the same about me. But i wanted to Skype to tell her. So this Tuesday we did. When I told her all she said was "Okay" I didn't really like Taylor's reaction that's for sure. But she seemed okay with it. On Wednesday she cleared everything up. She just wasn't sure how to let me down easy. I'm glad I told her though. Now we got past that, and we are now closer friends because of that. Tomorrow she is going for a two week trip. I'll miss her a lot, but I have some things going on in my life that will have my mind preoccupied. When she comes back we will probably continue where we left off, well hopefully. The last few girls I fell for; well I don't talk to them anymore. I'm pretty sure I won't stop communicating with Taylor. If I do, i'm sorry in advanced!