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Monday, 6 October 2014

It's been a while



It's been about 2 months since I last graced y'all with a post. So what has happened in the last 60 days or so? Well in my last post, I told you that I was going to Boston. It was a really great trip! We made almost perfect timing on the drive down. It was something like an eight and a half hour drive. We arrived at the hotel at around 8:45. After we checked in and put our bags in the room, we went to an Irish pub across the street. Before I move on, so I booked a handicapped room. When we got there it didn't seem very accessible. Then we opened the door to bathroom. The bathroom was huge! That caused the front hall to the bedroom part very narrow. I was lucky that my wheelchair is quite slim. If it had been a bigger disabled person, they would shit out of luck.

I don't recall the name of it though. It was a really nice place, with a great atmosphere and tasty food! I tried deep fried pickles for the first time that night. My verdict is: Very delicious, if you only eat 3 or 4. After that the grease became too much to handle. That is only my opinion though. I had some weird chicken sandwich, well not that weird. It was on nice thick bread. It was an enormous chicken tender with cheese, bacon, and barbecue sauce, Now I normally don't like barbecue sauce, but this sauce made the sandwich! I realize i'm describing a sandwich, but man oh man, it was like the best sandwich I've ever had!

The Next day we drove to Boston and took in some sights. Our hotel  was about 40 minutes away from the heart of downtown Boston. That day was gorgeous! We decided to visit Fenway park first. Okay so parking for Fenway is like, finding a 1930's nickel in your loose change. After about a good hour, we found a handicapped spot just a couple minutes away from the gate, where tour tickets are sold. First of all, in no way am I a baseball fan. However, when you are in Boston, you must visit this historic building! The view from the park is just breath taking. I felt all these amazing feelings, just from being in a building, with so much history behind it. After Fenway, it was time for the New England Aquarium!        

Apparently they had just recently finished construction, and for the first time ever people could look down into the centre tank. The aquarium is such a beautiful and calming place. I don't know if I could spend all day there, but I definitely could spend a good chunk of the day there. We were in and out in about two hours, because it was approaching the time, my friend and I was meeting agreed upon. So I went to just outside Quincy Market and stopped to wait for her. While waiting there was a street performer, performing. I don't remember exactly what she was doing, but I do remember being a little amazed.

A few minutes after the performance had finished , my buddy showed up. She could only hang out for like two hours, but it was enough time to meet a good friend. Meeting people is always a lot of fun. We had dinner at some Burger place and we talked. I really enjoyed my time with her. I thought she was nice on twitter and when we text, but in person, it really stands out!

The second and final day we visited the Science Museum. I have to admit, the first full day was much better than the second. I'm not saying I didn't enjoy the museum. It was very interesting and informative. A lot of the exhibits had hands on things, with me being disabled, I was not able to enjoy the museum to the fullest. After the museum we went to see Guardians of the Galaxy. This movie theater was huge. The movie in my opinion, was incredible! The movie had equal parts comedy/humour, drama, and action! Usually movies can never pull off that magical trio. Usually is the keyword! Why? Because this movie executed it perfectly! And to top it all off, the music in the film is off the hook! So all in all, I thoroughly enjoyed my time in Beantown!

In other News, I never got back to finishing my Jean story. My motivation for writing just came back today. So hopefully this post sparks something and I get my story finished! Maybe I can write some more poems, as well. I don't know what else there is to say. So I will end this here. You should, more than likely hear from me again. I promise it will be much less spread apart. See you again, for more blog insanity! And remember, When in despair, eat a gummy bear!    


Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Hey y'all

Last Tuesday I ended up seeing Dawn of the planet of the Apes! The movie was really well done. I thoroughly enjoyed the film, and suggest you, my readers to watch it. If you haven't seen Rise of the planet of the Apes yet, you should do that before anything else. It is not imperative that you see Rise, but it definitely makes Dawn more of a sequel experience.
I haven't done any writing since last Tuesday as on Wednesday I felt extremely sick and didn't feel like doing anything at all. To be honest I didn't really feel better until yesterday. There was no way I could focus on finishing my new story. On Sunday Josh and I filmed a segment and I will hopefully have that up on YouTube later this week.
Next week I'll be in Boston for a long awaited adventure/vacation! I will be meeting my friend that resides there and we will just hang out for a bit. I'm actually excited to meet her, as she has been a good friend towards me. So most likely I will not have a post for you next week.
Hopefully on the way to Boston, I can finish my first Jean adventure. I want to get a few poems written before I leave next Monday morning very early. I'll end this off with a little "religious outlook" if you will. Okay first of all, I'm not religious in any sense. What I mean is, I was raised Catholic. I was baptized, had my first communion when I was in grade two, and even had a confirmation in grade eight.
I never was really "religious" to begin with, but I still followed the religion. I was probably around 15 or 16 when I started disagreeing with how religions are organized. So I'm basically agnostic. This means I believe in some kind of higher power (not necessarily a God) I just really believe religion is outdated. Sure it serves some kind of purpose today.
People believe if they follow a certain religion, that they'll be forgiven no matter what they do. Which is completely outlandish. If you believe that having faith in a superior being will grant you access, to a life after death is just as insane. How about this, be nice to people. If you do moral things, I believe you will be rewarding yourself and the others around you.
If you believe in a religion, I'm not saying your wrong. I'm not going to argue with you whether or not you're correct. That would would just be futile. You believe what you want to believe, and I'll believe what I want to believe. My judgment in you will not be based off of your religious views. However it'll be based off of your morality and personality.
I'll probably either love you or I'll be able to tolerate you. I've had a lot of people in my life that brought me down. I've eliminated those people from my life. I don't like carrying any more baggage than I need to. If you treat me like shit, chances are I'll probably stop talking to you. I don't have time to deal with any unnecessary conflict.
I'm gonna end that there! I'll be back next week, maybe...Peace! When in despair, eat a gummy bear!
Quote of the Day:
"We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them" -Albert Einstein

Tuesday, 22 July 2014

"Moving On"

One of the hardest things to do, is let go of the feelings you have for another person. Every time I have to do such a thing, it seems to become more and more difficult. It is different this time though.The last two times, well they kinda gave me a valid reason to let go of my feelings for them.

This time It seems like I can accomplish getting rid of my feelings for this girl. First of all, she didn't freak out when I told her I had "said" feelings for her. Second of all, I see her as an incredible friend. Third of all, she is not a bitch. I'm sure these feelings for her will never 100% vanish, but I know in my heart that I will be okay with that.

What I mean by that is, the feeling of me being in love with her will be so miniscule that it won't come to my attention. I'm still gonna be worried about her at times, but friends worry about friends. I will love her the rest of my life, because of the bond we share.

What I'm trying to get at is, my "romantic" feelings for Taylor will soon be replaced completely by my "plutonic" feelings for Taylor. It'll still take some time for these changes to fully take effect. I don't really care how long it'll take, because no matter what I'm still going to be her friend.

I'm ending this post there! I will probably be back sometime next week, unless something important happens that I feel I want to share with y'all! Peace! When in despair, eat a gummy bear! Sorry I have no quote today.

Wednesday, 16 July 2014

More changes??? plus a poem!



I know I said I'd probably be posting new content every Tuesday and Thursday. Now I'm thinking I'll just post something whenever I feel like I need to share something. For anybody that wants to hear about how my new story is going, it is going quite well! I will be surpassing 25 pages today and hope get up to 17,000 words. I've been working on this story for 3 weeks, I believe. So I've definitely been making great progress.  I plan on writing another Jean adventure when I finish this one. I still cannot forget about my novel through! I still haven't broke 30,000 words and I've been working on it for over a year now.

What else? Oh ya, I wrote a new poem on Friday! I feel that it is my best work, by far! I'm not sure if I'll show anyone the poem. I'm sure I will include it in a post in the future, but as of now it's for my own enjoyment. I plan on writing more poems in the foreseeable future, so don't fret, you will have many other poems to read and hopefully enjoy. Also, there is a pretty good possibility that I will be visiting Boston in August. That's about an 8 hour drive or so. I plan on leaving on a Monday, spending all day Tuesday and Wednesday in the city, and driving back home on the Thursday.

In that amount of time I should be able to see things, I may not have had the time to five years ago. There are things in the city, I loved so much the first time that I want to visit them again. I'm not a baseball fan, but Fenway Park is on my list of places to visit. It's kind of an important part of the city, that it makes it very important that I visit Boston's "Cathedral" if you will.

In other news, I don't think I'll be going back to College for a few years anyway. Don't get me wrong, I want to get a college diploma. I just don't feel up to it, maybe I need some more time to adjust to the major change in my disability. Besides, I find my writing to be the most important part of my life. With my writing, I still feel I need more practice to realize my potential. I know I won't be some international writer, but the thing is I don't need to be! If people like my stuff, cool. If people don't like my stuff, that's fine too. As long as I have people that dislike my work, I will work at it to improve my craft. Other than my writing, I don't know what else really matters to me.

Here's a poem that I wrote a while back! When I wrote this, I wasn't in the best state mentally. However the best writing emerges in the down times. Anyway here it is!


There is pain in my heart
The pain wants to pour out
I’ve been holding in the pain, far too long
Layer by layer
I must remove the black filth from my heart

My flame is dying out
I can’t let it be extinguished
I must let the emotions free
From the depths of my soul
Before it’s too late

I haven’t cried out my emotions in about five years
They are trapped
I don’t know how to let it out
It’s just so foreign to me
What am I gonna do

People may say showing your emotions
Makes you less as a person
That is bullshit!
Showing your emotions not only makes you stronger
But it also reveals your true identity


My true identity is well…
I really don’t know
I have searched for years
I have yet to find my purpose on this planet
I don’t think I’ll ever find it either

I have given up hope
The sparkle in my eye is nonexistent
The Butterflies in my stomach died long ago
The jump in my step has vanished
My soul is deteriorating before my very eyes

There is pain in my heart  


Anyway this is the end to my post. I might be back on Friday. If not, you will hear from me next week! Peace! Remember kids, When in despair, eat a gummy bear!

Quote of the Day:

"Each person has an ideal, a hope, a dream which represents the soul. We must give to it the warmth of love, the light of understanding and the essence of encouragement." -Colby Dorr Dam       

Thursday, 10 July 2014

Life talk



I was watching a movie last night. I liked the film because it was a cool concept. The bad thing about cool concept films, is often the film could have been better. This one was an exception through. The only thing I didn't really like was the last 7 minutes or so. It was about a philosophy class. It was their final test before they graduated. The class had to choose which of them would survive a nuclear fallout by being selected to live in a bunker, while the radiation secedes.The instructor handed out cards giving them careers. Some of the careers would not be so helpful in the new world. They went through the hypothetical situation three times. I'm not going to go into further detail. If you want to check it out and I really recommend you do, it's called "After the dark"

Anyway's it really got me thinking, what would I bring to the table in the "new world"? I could write stories to inspire and entertain the others. I have been known to motivate people, so that could help. Keeping people hopeful for a better future, keeps them from becoming depressed and eventually killing themselves. I would probably just give up my spot to someone more qualified to help rebuild civilization. I can't really say that through, because a situation like that has never arisen. I do believe I have it in my heart to do so. Sacrificing yourself could never be an easy decision though.
Another thing that it got me to think about was just life in general. A lot of the things that seem so important to us in this modern era, would serve us no purpose in a desolate earth. Things like clothing labels; in a desolate world you'd be happy with wearing anything. Social media would be non-existent, and some people have no idea how to interact without electronics. I know some people would not know how to cope. and would eventually go crazy. 

Ahhh, this is the end i guess. Sorry I haven't been able to think clearly lately. I will get more content out to you guys and girls in the coming weeks. I'll be back either tomorrow or on Monday for more blogger madness! Peace! Remember kids; When in despair, eat a gummy bear!

Quote of the Day:

 

If you would attain to what you are not yet, you must always be displeased by what you are. For where you are pleased with yourself there you have remained. Keep adding, keep walking, keep advancing. ~Saint Augustine