I know I said I'd probably be posting new content every Tuesday and Thursday. Now I'm thinking I'll just post something whenever I feel like I need to share something. For anybody that wants to hear about how my new story is going, it is going quite well! I will be surpassing 25 pages today and hope get up to 17,000 words. I've been working on this story for 3 weeks, I believe. So I've definitely been making great progress. I plan on writing another Jean adventure when I finish this one. I still cannot forget about my novel through! I still haven't broke 30,000 words and I've been working on it for over a year now.
What else? Oh ya, I wrote a new poem on Friday! I feel that it is my best work, by far! I'm not sure if I'll show anyone the poem. I'm sure I will include it in a post in the future, but as of now it's for my own enjoyment. I plan on writing more poems in the foreseeable future, so don't fret, you will have many other poems to read and hopefully enjoy. Also, there is a pretty good possibility that I will be visiting Boston in August. That's about an 8 hour drive or so. I plan on leaving on a Monday, spending all day Tuesday and Wednesday in the city, and driving back home on the Thursday.
In that amount of time I should be able to see things, I may not have had the time to five years ago. There are things in the city, I loved so much the first time that I want to visit them again. I'm not a baseball fan, but Fenway Park is on my list of places to visit. It's kind of an important part of the city, that it makes it very important that I visit Boston's "Cathedral" if you will.
In other news, I don't think I'll be going back to College for a few years anyway. Don't get me wrong, I want to get a college diploma. I just don't feel up to it, maybe I need some more time to adjust to the major change in my disability. Besides, I find my writing to be the most important part of my life. With my writing, I still feel I need more practice to realize my potential. I know I won't be some international writer, but the thing is I don't need to be! If people like my stuff, cool. If people don't like my stuff, that's fine too. As long as I have people that dislike my work, I will work at it to improve my craft. Other than my writing, I don't know what else really matters to me.
Here's a poem that I wrote a while back! When I wrote this, I wasn't in the best state mentally. However the best writing emerges in the down times. Anyway here it is!
There is pain in my heart
The pain wants to pour out
I’ve been holding in the pain, far too long
Layer by layer
I must remove the black filth from my heart
My flame is dying out
I can’t let it be extinguished
I must let the emotions free
From the depths of my soul
Before it’s too late
I haven’t cried out my emotions in about five years
They are trapped
I don’t know how to let it out
It’s just so foreign to me
What am I gonna do
People may say showing your emotions
Makes you less as a person
That is bullshit!
Showing your emotions not only makes you stronger
But it also reveals your true identity
My true identity is well…
I really don’t know
I have searched for years
I have yet to find my purpose on this planet
I don’t think I’ll ever find it either
I have given up hope
The sparkle in my eye is nonexistent
The Butterflies in my stomach died long ago
The jump in my step has vanished
My soul is deteriorating before my very eyes
Anyway this is the end to my post. I might be back on Friday. If not, you will hear from me next week! Peace! Remember kids, When in despair, eat a gummy bear!
Quote of the Day:
"Each person has an ideal, a hope, a dream which represents the soul. We must give to it the warmth of love, the light of understanding and the essence of encouragement." -Colby Dorr Dam
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