Poems by me 3

I totally slacked off today, so this will be a short post. Before I get to the poem, I have some updates on the YouTube front. Josh and I got around two hours of raw video footage, yesterday afternoon. I think we can put together 4 videos with the footage. Less than half the footage will be used. If I end up editing the footage this week, you may see a video or two by Monday. I'm hoping to release an episode by then. We may decide to wait till we film a bit more. The reason we may do that is, because then there is a better chance we will stay on a continuous cycle. I'd rather we start on a structured schedule, instead of just releasing an episode whenever. That is about it. The poem you will see here is one of my best, in my opinion. 

Fighting for Survival 

All my life I have been fighting

Emotionally and Physically

Being stubborn in this situation

Is crucial to my survival

I’m still here

I used to cry myself to sleep

I used to lash out in fits of rage

I still do from time to time

Occasionally I think of ending my life

I’m still here

I have been facing pain my whole life

I’m the only disabled one in my entire family

They will never truly understand what

I’m going through

I’m still here

My determination

My willpower

My strength

Keeps me going on

I’m still here

I’m still here!

I’M STILL HERE!   


I haven't read that poem in a while. It really speaks to me on deep emotional level. That's good because, I haven't been feeling so great today. That could be the reason why I didn't write anything all morning. It could also because, I was trying to beat some computer game all afternoon. Ah well I still managed to write something and that is what counts. Anyway this is the end to another post. I'll be back tomorrow! Peace! When in despair, eat a gummy bear!

Side Note:  "Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards" -Søren Kierkegaard